Last year I made a post summing up what changes were in store for me (This post) - And I was just looking back and thinking of my expectations... Some of my ideas never happened, some did, and some new opportunities came up that I couldn't even think of back then! But I'm coming to a realization: God is in control of my life, no matter what I try to do with or without Him. I have a verse for ya.
"The mind of man plans his way,But the Lord directs his steps." ~Proverbs 16:9
With that being said, I'm at a point in my life where more change is either happening or needs to happen. And for some reason, it came around again in March... I guess I'll just adapt and make March my "Life Planning and Seasons of Change" month. Hah! ...But I digress.
Back to what I was saying, This time my outside environment isn't changing all that much. I'm back to working during the night, and still working my way to become a supervisor (and I have a more realistic goal for doing that. I'm disenchanted with the idea of becoming one before I'm twenty). But this time there's more "personal change" going on. I'm in a group of a few people at my store that's being "trained" and given leadership opportunities and experiences by our operator, and that is stretching me to my max... Not to mention the fact of actually getting into a routine of doing school - which, yes, I have done. I've actually accomplished figuring out how to manage my time so that I can work almost full-time while completing college in three years. - so my life is pretty busy at this point.... But.... The change.... Several of my managers and people I respect have told me that to take my leadership to the next level, I'll have to change some things about how I work. I need to change my mindset about a few things.
And that, my friends, is going to be really hard for me. It's a step in the right direction, and it's necessary to be an effective leader, but my inner man is still fighting it with every ounce of strength in him.... It's almost like my brain knows what to do, but it goes into "auto-pilot" when it comes right down to it.
Will crying fix it? No.... Although I wish it was that easy. I believe that God, prayer, hard work, a right attitude, and dedication will be the only things that can see me through this to bring God glory.
Not to say I haven't felt like crying a couple times already. But hey! You've all heard that "Life isn't going to be easy, in fact...." etc. But I think (and this has been said a lot by many other people as well) that you need to just get right back up when life knocks you down, and keep at it! That's the only way to live! You'll die if you stay on the ground. And I'm picking myself up and gearing up for the battle.
It's a battle of the mind and heart. And one I can't lose, because of my great Captain.
Are you going through any change in your life? If you are, don't give up just because it seems hard! God will give you the strength you need for the challenges you face. :)
P.S. In other news, Frisbee is about ready to roll around again. And I'll start to post a little more on here as I have time (Lord willing, and the creek don't rise - as they say here in the Sunny South).